[Chaos].
I just swallowed 200 mg Atosil [Promethazine] and will hopefully be able to sleep…
I’m going to rehab…

I’m going to be inpatient on a locked ward from 21th of may for at least 15 days near Munich. I’m afraid…. I don’t want to… But I will get no further therapy if I don’t withdrawal… Annette [she’s my friend and also a medcial doctor] is just disappointed in me… I am a disappointment. Practically, my psychiatrist [ Dr. H.] is forcing me to go to this psychiatry…
I have no choice… I can not handle this…